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It has been a fulfilling period of 10 weeks to be conducting classes, co-teaching and to be the cca in charge. The news have been broken and I am leaving.
Nonetheless, I was glad that I've made difference to the students' life. More or less, to know and be appreciated is great, I am doing this from the bottom of my heart.
Every moment spent is a golden opportunity to learn and understands the students better.
This afternoon, I was told by the a parent of my student that he likes the way I am teaching. He has never enjoy science but he is able to understand during my lesson. I am so glad to hear that. It's knowing that you made a change in a person's life satisfies me the most.
I am in the occupation because I love doing it. I strive to be a full pledge teacher. The ultimate goal.
Dear God, please give me strength and perseverance to achieve my goal. Amin.
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It's the end of week 9. My last week will be in week 10 in Dunearn Sec School before I go on with my course at NIE. I am excited with the sudden change of co-teaching and back to learning.
A little bit on my experience in school. Dunearn gave me the wrong impression with my first few weeks stay. Horrible and rude, mischievous and playful, I got scared and nervous. Every time I went into the classroom, my nerves got all tight cause I am not sure what they will do during class.
Countless times bringing students to see the Discipline Master, myself screaming at them and just scolding them.
However, I believe it takes time to get use to them, understand and learn a little about them. For that, I see a better them and also the best in me. Relationship with students are important, they want teachers to get to know them, to talk with them, simply just spending a little time with them. They can be really nice and endearing.
The most impressive of late was with one of the sec 2 classes. At first, I got intimidated every-time I am having lessons with them. Now, I feel that I will miss them the most. I was tasked to do revisions on FORCES and SIMPLE MACHINES, it got me setting notes for them. They were attentive though not 100 percent for sure. Just that as compared to the first day I met them, they are totally a different class. For that I am happy.
I know that this is the right path for me, being a teacher. I am always excited everyday to share knowledge, try to get to know them better and help them in anyway.
There are a lot of experiences with the students when I brought them to science centre. Though it's not easy to manage them, I do really enjoy being with them.
It saddens me that I will be back next year, only to see them when they are in lower sec to become upper sec students, from shorts to long pants, and probably they will grow taller them me.
Satisfaction comes when you know you have help someone along the way. Though it can be challenging, it's the greatest thing if you succeed.
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I have been deluded that being in a classroom of students, there will be the teacher doing the teaching while the students do the learning. The traditional classroom environment.
To burst my own bubble, there has not been the case.
Students are shrieking at the top of their lungs, running around haphazardly and sleeping in class. In a nutshell, there is not learning that is taking place.
Teachers are screaming to get their lessons to go on. What a pity.
Sadly, a clear cut no respect for an adult standing infront of the classroom. Disturbingly, the lack of values and no sign of discipline shown by the students just seem to be what this generation is all about.
Excuse my french, I wonder why they are here in the first place.
The gang and big plan.
We KICKASS eating.
There are many injustice going on around the world that makes me feel that these are more important issue as compared to those self-proclaimed life problems we faced. It makes our problems seem menial and trivial. Racism, abuse, discrimination, racial profiling, intolerance are some examples. I am distraught to learn.
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2) There is no such thing as a free lunch.
3) Decisions are made at the margin.
4) Trade promotes economic progress.
5) Transaction costs are an obstacle to trade.
6) Prices bring the choices of buyers and sellers into balance.
7) Profits direct businesses toward activities that increase wealth.
8) People earn income by helping others.
9) Production of goods and service people value, not just jobs, provides the source of high living standards.
10) Economic progress comes primarily through trade, investment, better ways of doing things, and sound economic institutions.
11) The "invinsible hand" of market prices directs buyers and sellers toward activities that promote the general welfare.
12) Too often the long term consequences, or the secondary effects, of an action are ignored.
Working life has slowly turn me into a deadwood. A normal, mundane-looking and no bugs would attach itselves to piece of wood. No emotions, just like a machine to go on with the cycle. I am lack of feeling for others these days, my mind has been fiddling about nothingelse but how to survive another day at work.
I am not hating the work but I am not learning anything and doing much.
It only matters when you see the paycheck but it will take a toll on many aspects of social life, and ultimately enjoying life.
Strike a work-life balance and you can get happiness. Easy said then done.
I will be "American" about it, I will confront or talk about it if I feel any less comfortable that have been said about or against me.
Well perhaps, some point in life you have to learn how to stand up for yourself if you feel someone is trying to pull you down or just trying to belittle you as a person. I will allow to let it go or walk away if the matter is trivial and pathetic. Regardless it's always feel good to be the bigger person.
However matters like making a mockery out of you or saying something to make you feel like an idiot will not go unnoticed. At times, one can try to make others feel low or stupid about themselves just to make himself feels better or more superior.
I may be acting like a fool most of the time but I am not empty. So a little respect would be nice.
Only little people will belittle others.
I am afraid to commit to another person and not so ready to be in a serious relationship. Not in anytime soon because I still have a priority in life to take care of. I would want to fall head over heels for a girl definitely but now seem not to be the best time for that.
I need the time to myself. Understanding the directions I want to take in my life. I need to focus on starting, building and working on the life that I want. I have many ideals and responsibility especially to my parents. I am not pretending to be selfless but I need to do this for myself and on my own.
However, truth to be told, I am really honoured to be asked by someone who notices me that I am a nice person and she wishes to introduce a good collegue of hers to me. She is hoping that it could turn out well for both of us if we go for a date. Perhaps, she may be right but the time is not right for me. I have to pass off with the offer.
So moving on from the degratory love life I have...
I am at the point in my life that I can just walk away from confrontation cause I totally could not care much.
I am really good at what I am doing when it comes to tennis, don't expect me to give you a walk in a park sort of game. I will squeeze every ounce of energy I have, chase every ball I could and hit as hard as my arms could take.
So don't you throw tantrums at me.
I am not an emotional player so I will not breakdown if I lost any points in the game. I move on and try to take the next game and give it my all. If you were to throw your emotions openly in the court, there's no fighting spirit and worst you could be manipulated by your opponent by making you feel worst off.
So about yesterday, I am walking away knowing that I am a bigger person. However, I will still play as well as I have been and give you hell on the court.
